I've come upon a question...

Do I have my own emotions?

Because of the medications I take, it controls my moods.
My lows are so low anymore.
And my highs aren't too high.

I'm held at an ever-lasting median, so long as I remain medicated.

But my emotions are meant to be my emotions, are they not?
Whether they're extreme or not.

So technically, am I not being controlled in a way?
And what's to say that the way I'm affected by my feelings isn't normal?

Is the fact that I'm different a birth defect?
I was born a certain way.  
And now I'm medicated for it, because it is not how I "should" be.

Just a question though.
I really don't mind much.
I don't like being sad, depressed, and suicidal.
And I don't much like making a fool out of myself either.

Thoughts, opinions, ideas?